Shopping?

"kakak, wake up!" said mum to me..i'm always like this..if there is no matter for me to do, i will sleep after performing my suboh prayer..but today is special day..if i don't wake up early, i will miss the opportunity to buy things needed for me to study abroad...very soon to make the preparation i guess..but, the less price later will gone after the new year , 2008..huhuu..so, i go to MP this morning and and buy new stuff...shoes, clothes, n bla bla bla...the price? is actually very expensive but after get the discount, it is affordable... i feel guilty because for me, mum use a lot of money..she gives the attention more on me compared to my siblings..sometimes, i feel like this is not fair to us..but, i know that mum had already discussed about money matters with dad..they know how to divide the money on us..n for now, i'm the one who use a lot of money..i think so..i say to myself that i will repay my mum and dad with the succesful in my studies...get a completion with honost degree in BSc..n if i can go further to continue to master n phd, i will go..i want to serve my country with my successful in being an educator..selagi hayat dikandung badan, akanku berkhidmat utk agama,bangsa dan negara..:p